In Loving Memory of My Brother

To my dearest brother, Chuck -
Just found out today that my oldest brother, Chuck, died yesterday in his sleep, Sept 15, 2006. He was 38 years old. Words cannot express how i'm feeling right now. I haven't seen him in 4 years - I speak to him occasionally, sometimes we email eachother, and last week he told me that he was going to come down to D.C. to visit us. He lives in Toronto, Canada. He was quite excited, already planning what he's going to cook for me when he comes over. I spoke to him on Sept. 11th and I was telling him that I wasn't happy and that I am not getting what I want in my life. He just told me to be patient and someday my dreams will come true...Those were his last words to me - It's so painful to know that your brother is gone and I keep thinking about all those things we did together as a famly. But, he lived his life to the fullest and he was a happy man. A jolly and fun guy. Always ready to do the next adventure, always the one willing to drive the whole family around, going on long trips, etc. I feel sad that I never got a chance to talk to him more or even chit-chat once in a while. How I wish I could press rewind and change some things or maybe even tried to contact him or talk to him more....but, it's too late because he's never coming back and I hate myself for that. But, I am glad that he lived his life and he found a good wife. He was my big teddy bear.... and I will miss him, terribly. I will surely miss you, Kuya Chuck. I will miss your care-free attitude and the positive energy you bring into a room, I will miss those times when we were little and how we used to play war, all those times growing up in B.F., all those times growing up in Old Brentford Ct., all those times you taught me how to clean the kitchen, and most of all how you taught me how to be strong. I am glad you are at peace now, I love you forever and always. He asked me last week to draw a cartoon of himself and I promised him that I would - Kuya Chuck, I also promise and I swear to dedicate my very first published Children's Book in your memory. I will really miss you and will never forget you. -Mitch